Elenore Nash

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 06:11:12 GMT

Many things have changed this time around.
Marco and Dylan are really cozy.

Ashleys not really speaking to me anymore. Maybe just a little, but not as much as before. I think shes still peeved at Craig. She HATES Manny.

And well... life goes on.

Sun, 08 Feb 2004 11:08:51 GMT

Hey. So Ashley is healing well, its going to be no time before she gets over Craig. That bastard. I'm sorry, but I really don't like him right now.

I think The Yeah Yeah Yeah's song "Maps"
is a really good song for this time in both Ashley and I's life. In a romantic way for Ashley and Craig and a friendship way for Marco and I. Its nice that hes so happy while I'm so miserable.

I think I might pick up an instrument, who knows? Maybe I can start a band to rival PMS??? That would be really cool, wouldn't it?

Valentine's Dance will be soon. I don't want to go.

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 04:57:13 GMT

Oh, in other news, I went t a party at Jimmy's for New Years. Poor Jimmy got too much to drink and nearly passed out before the countdown.

Marco seemed like he was having fun. He was dancing like a maniac on the dance floor. hehehe
I didn't see Ashley there, she said she'd go if she felt up to it. I guess she didn't. Hmmmm....

Marco kissed me at midnight. Just a kiss, nothing more than a friendly after-countdown kiss. I don't think I can think of Marco as being anything more... I have to accept the fact that Marco is not the one for me. The one for me is still out there... maybe if I quit searching so hard he'll find me.

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 04:30:05 GMT

This New Years celebration was a blast (get it?).

There are a lot of New Years Resolutions I really need to think up on:

- Have to be more social
- Learn to express myself
- Keep a journal (online ones don't count)
- Get myself something else to live for*

* Don't get me wrong I have a ton of things to live for. And I thank whoevers up there every chance for blessing me with them, but having something else to live for.... like a passion, now thats a kind of motivation you can't get any where else.

Later
-Ellie

Tue, 30 Dec 2003 08:29:51 GMT

The holidays are here. I didn't get to update near Christmas because of all the things happening in the community. I really love helping the Christmas Talent Show. It was fun!

My gosh, Marco was totally making me burst with laughter! I mean, "Greensleeves" on an Accordian? That was classic! To top it off he had to wear that ridiculous hat to tie his outfit together! What a laugh! He seemed happy to be up there though. You gotta love that guy.

It seems really mean to be so happy now when my best friend, Ashley is feeling so down. I was over at her house as a shoulder to cry on for what seemed like days. That ass Craig really did a number on her...

More later, but I have to go now...

Wed, 17 Dec 2003 03:18:01 GMT

Dads been gone for awhile now. Almost 3 weeks of no Dad is doing a number on Mom. I hope she gets better soon.

Today was just like any other day at Degrassi. I said my casual 'Hello' to the few friends I have and tried to ignore the others. Some of them look down at me, sometimes I think they're labeling me due to my clothes. I mean, who in their right minds would judge someone by their clothes just like that??? They're just clothes right?

I don't care what they think. I'm not going to change. I'd never change to make other people happy.

But sometimes it does get hot wearing all this black....

Mon, 15 Dec 2003 07:59:13 GMT

Tomorrow I have an appointment to see the couselor again. We meet every so often to discuss things in my life and lighten my loud. I have to remember to go. Its a good thing Mr. Simpson is too busy being enthralled with that paper on his desk or else I could totally get caught updating this.

As you can tell, I just made this journal. I was curious when I saw the other kids typing their hearts away, so I had to look over their shoulders to see what was the whole deal of this. I must say, its pretty cool. I can see why they update their journals here a lot.

Maybe if I save my money from my Co-Op job, I can a cheap laptop or something to store images or my movies. It would so cool to see some online stores to buy everyone stuff for Christmas. Yeah, I know its a little early to think about what to give them, but theres only a few more days to give them their perspective presents. I hardly ever see anyone I know from school just walking by.

Well, I got to go now. Mr. Simpsons reading the note... "Ellie Nash, you're wanted in the counselors office right away"??? What???